This is one of my more vulnerable videos. I am being open and honest about my past and the difficult things I endured throughout the course of that time. Things have changed since I made this video, which I will briefly mention here:
- I currently am back on medication for things that I deal with. There’s nothing wrong with being on them if you need to be. At that time I wasn’t in need of that sort of intervention but, with time, things always have the possibility of changing.
- I no longer work where I work where I said I did in the video. I work in a laboratory now, which leads me to my next bullet point.
- I didn’t get my bachelor’s in nursing, but in Clinical Lab Science instead.
- My relationship with my mother isn’t in the same state as it was in the video. I didn’t truly have her back, and I don’t have her now. Yes, she is living, but the relationship between us is severed due to choices that she has made. Yes, I do carry some bitterness about it now.
This is a very condensed version of the things of my past but I wanted to be open and share my story so that maybe someone out there will find the courage to share theirs as well. We currently live in a society that wants to hush these sorts of outcries but do not be hushed, do not have fear. Your story is worthy of being heard and you are worthy of healing.
I really hope that you took the time to watch the entire video, and if you did, thank you. It took a lot of guts for me to make and share that video when I did. It might even answer some questions for some of you that know me as to why I acted the way I did in the past…especially in school. I was enduring a lot. It was hard for people to understand because it hadn’t happened to them. HOWEVER, I am so glad that these people had not experienced this and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. Just having a friend during that time meant the world to me.
I hope that you can take away something positive from my vulnerability in this video and it can even possibly help reduce the stigma surrounding mental health and specifically abuse. I want all of you reading this and watching my video to know this: there is help, there is hope, and there is healing available to those who seek it. Don’t be afraid to do so. Your life is worth it.